Thursday, February 19, 2009

A Little More About Sissy Fantasies and Cross Dressing

…and it’s relation to female beauty.

I found an interesting website this morning, written by a male slave who is essentially thinking out loud over the question of - why are men attracted to the idea of feminization.

Some interesting thoughts there from him, and also from transexuals and cross dressers who wrote comments in reply. One in particular wrote a sizable piece talking about her own happiness at having gone through with her decision to become a female.

He also shares a number of very hot sissy audio stories, recorded by a dominatrix he appears to be quite enamored with (based on the pictures of her that he has posted there, I can understand why. She well fits my thoughts on the kind of female beauty that is bold and confident, full of feminine sexuality and pride).

I’m looking for more sissy audio clips of this sort actually. The ones on the site I am talking about are highly sexual and graphic in nature, and perfect for me to use as examples of the sexual side of feminization as both lifestyle and fetish. (There are also some equally intense sissy stories linked to that site too by the way).

But I’m also looking for softer sissy audio stories that are dedicated to training a man to be more feminine. I want to use it to support my point about how there are many sissy men more interested in developing themselves as women just for that sake alone, than solely the sexual possibilities of feminization.

I myself am not interested in such transformation, but like I said in my first post, I do find shemale beauties to be very attractive. Feminization is the process through which a shemale is made, and my understanding of this subject is beneficial to my overall understanding of these lovely ladies.

Admiring Female Beauty Through Imitation

While I myself am not a cross dresser or sissy, I think I can understand the attraction some men have to the idea of imitating a woman.

Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery after all, and as such, a man seeking to dress and behave like a woman is in its way, a clear compliment to the beauty and grace that is integral to being female.

I say that I can understand the attraction for this exact reason. While my admiration for female beauty doesn’t manifest in this form, I don’t judge the way it does for others. If women weren’t such amazing, beautiful creatures, we wouldn’t be so drawn to them. For some men this draw is so strong they wish they could be female too.

I think it is wrong to try to box the concept of cross dressing into being a “sexual fetish”. While this is true for some, it isn’t for all. For most cross dressers, sex isn’t the focus, being female is. That is where they find their freedom and what they feel to be their true place in the world.

The same thing holds for the “sissy fetish” - which is essentially a more stylized form of cross dressing. While assumed to be a sexual fetish and something done strictly for forms of gay or femdom sex, reality is the real focus for many sissies, just like other cross dressers, is on being female. Given the choice between watching porn and watching a show that described a new type of makeup and its application, most sissies I know would choose the latter with great excitement and anticipation.

Some might call it sick or repulsive, but when looked at from an open mind, cross dressing first and foremost is a life choice made by another person that should be respected as their decision. Secondly, of all the choices on could make, this one in itself, is a harmless one, so there is little to complain about in truth. And finally, it is merely another person’s way of expressing their admiration and love of female beauty, something we all share.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Another Interesting and Extreme Fetish - Ballbusting

On the topic of female beauty, I find feminine power extremely attractive. Not that feminine submission isn’t equally attractive, just that there are many different sides to the potential of female beauty.

Truly dominant women are creatures of striking appearance and commanding presence. They demand both obedience and attention.

When you add aggression to this mix you have something truly glorious in a way that overwhelms the senses. A being that can and will overpower you on every level. She will have what she desires.

And if you push that aggression to an extreme, you have a ruthless beauty who takes what she wants with little care. Sadism is a lover to her, while her partners are mere victims to feed her appetites; discarded once consumed. And even the strongest of men learn submission at the hands of a superior female who will not be denied.

One example of a fetish that such women enjoy is that of femdom ballbusting.

I know that those unfamiliar with the expression will find its meaning shocking - ballbusting is sexual enjoyment derived from a man being kicked in the groin by a dominant woman.

This is one of the most striking single displays of female physical and sexual power there is. In an instant it removes all pretenses of male dominance, leaving him completely incapacitated and vulnerable. While raising the woman up to a position of complete control.

Picture the image of a woman standing strong and beautiful over a man who is curled in a ball at her feet in pain. High heels. Thigh High Stockings. Tight Dress. Makeup, Hair, Nails - all perfect. The epitome of female sexual power, removing any delusions of dominance the male may have had.

This link will give you an example of what I mean. It will take you to some free ballbusting stories that will give you an idea of what kind of sexual fantasies those enjoying this fetish have.

I can’t say I can totally handle being on the receiving end of such punishment, but the fantasy is a very arousing one. More than anything what is exciting is that image of a woman ruthlessly wielding power over a man. How absolutely incredible she looks. It almost seems as if ballbusting causes the woman to be possessed with some kind of terrible beauty that borders the line of frightening and leaves both parties feeling exhilarated in different ways.

I’m not trying to sell anyone on the idea of ballbusting, just trying to shine a little light on why someone would enjoy this fetish. Stories or videos are the best way for the uninitiated to observe from a safe distance.

For some it’s the masochistic element - the pain. For others it’s the associated submission to a dominant woman. But for still others like myself, it’s the glaring display of unbridled female beauty in one of its most ruthless and frightening forms.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

A Sexual Fetish For Everything

It never ceases to amaze me the wealth of different sexual fantasies and fetishes people have. It almost seems as if there is a fetish for everything, and a fetishist waiting to enjoy it. Not just tastes that seem reasonable, but others ranging from the weird to the flat out outlandish, often seeming to have zero to do with what would commonly be considered sexual.

I would really hazard to say just about any topic one could think of has a fetish related to it, and also adherents with sexual fantasies that incorporate these ideas either directly or indirectly as a necessary and stimulating part. And it’s not just men who push the limits, even the weirdest, most extreme tastes span both the female and male sexes.

Punch in some searches on the internet and it’s amazing what you’ll find. It seems like they’ve dug up a Greek word for everything you can imagine, slapped the Greek “-philia” on the end of it and ta-da another fetish is born.

I remember one of the shock jobs years ago had a guy on who was aroused by the thought of vomit and being vomited on. It’s a sexual fetish called “Emetophilia”, and I’m not making it up. I’m also not trying to sicken anyone reading this, I’m simply reinforcing my point. Something that just about all of us would find not only disgusting and to be avoided at all costs, this guy truly loved. I’m not at all sure why this would be arousing, excepting perhaps some excitement over the repulsive nature of it or a childhood event that made a lasting mark. Got me.

Same holds true with the concept of the toilet slave. This fetish involves human waste in a wide variety of ways. It can be as simple as being aroused by watching a female urinate, all the way up to things done with solid matter that I have no desire to detail here (no offense to those who love this fetish, you know part of why you enjoy it is the reaction most have to toilet slavery). I’ve read that there are plenty of women who share this sexual interest too, wanting to watch men relieve themselves.

I found a set of toilet slave stories that some might find interesting. They mix bondage with the less extreme portions of this fetish. It’s written by a dominatrix talking about things she’s done in session in the pro-BDSM scene.

The Japanese have cultivated this into a whole specialized fetish known as “Omorashi”, a subculture whose sexual fantasies center on the idea of a female with a full bladder and her eventual loss of control. They love watching girls squirm and run around trying to “hold it in”. They even have a whole comic book genre dedicated to it.

And truth is, these two examples are pretty mild compared to some of what is out there. When you cross into heavier forms of BDSM it can get pretty scary, while the people involved love and need this extreme play.

And again, don’t think that women don’t have some odd tastes. Female fantasies are no less extreme, and sometimes are actually further out there.

PS - I found another site that expands on the toilet slave stories I linked to above. Its an extension of those at another location. Like the others, it doesn’t get too extreme, but it talks about a male slave who really loved this fetish and the kind of sexual fantasies he had regarding it.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Female Beauty Of Another Form

I havent written much here yet, but I am sure that any reading will soon wonder about what I said in my first post regarding my shemale fetish, as I call it.

Some will be curious, others mocking, and still more, disgusted. Such is the way of our world. I have had sexual fantasies about transexuals beauties since puberty, and am not ashamed of them.

Like I said, I'm not attracted to men, so masculine, butch or manly transexuals are not my thing, no offense. But I do find something both attractive and intriguing about a shemale who is very beautiful in a very feminine way. One who could pass for female, excepting for what is between her legs.

I think on one level it's the simple fact that she is by all initial appearances, female. But I think it's also that many transexuals study what it is to be a woman, and seek to epitomize that as best as possible. Almost as if they don't take being feminine for granted, as so many born women do. Since they so desire it, they respect it greatly, and seek to embody it as much as possible. Sometimes a shemale will actually be more female in her dress, style and mannerisms than many born women.

And so I think my interest comes from that, and is directed to those who most admire what it is to be feminine. An admiration I share with them, though not in the same way.

Any assumed bisexuality that I have is for the most part that of me in the masculine position. I have been in the receiving role, but only in forced bi femdom sessions - I have an interest in BDSM, from both a dominant and submissive perspective depending on my mood, and happily indulge my sexual fantasies. But even then this would only be with women and beautiful shemales - not forced bi in the sense of me taking other men.

Relationships and other involvements I have had with transexuals in the past have always been with very feminine ladies, who have only wanted to be with truly masculine and dominant men. In most cases these took only the female role in sex, and I only saw them that way. I treated them as what they were - women - and that is what they most desired anyway.